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2013 in review meme

I see I last did this in 2011, so why not?
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Hi I am still here!

Clearly it's been too long since I posted, as I had to stop and think about how I do so. I started to look for my lj client which I haven't used in several years...

Hi, I am still alive, and although I completely stopped reading dw/lj for 4 months, I am back. Here are the highlights:

1) I have a job! I started in August (hence the 4 mo hiatus), and I still like it & they still like me. After 2+ years of unemployment, it's been really nice to have a steady paycheck, benefits I don't have to pay a zillion dollars per month for, and to do something productive in the secular world.

2) I have a baby! He is adorable and 9 weeks old tomorrow. I'm pondering a name for him here. I'm partial to Tiny Tyrant (meant with love! really!), but [personal profile] bearfairie doesn't find that funny.

3) Beyond that, Pocket (which is where I read all my fanfic these days) tells me I've read more than 5,000,000 words this year, and I've been watching a mess of TV when I can, so I am still fannishly involved. I do sporadic binges on Tumblr (obvious to anyone following me as I reblog a zillion things and then vanish again).

And now I've accidentally posted, so I guess I'm done for now. Happy New Year!

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drive-by update

I was totally inspired by [personal profile] cesperanza's challenge to post every day for a chunk of time, and yet have not managed to type words on a page. So, a quick update at least to say I'm still alive, still around in my usual lurking mode, and wishing you all well (well, I tried for quick & it turned out I had a lot to say).

I did manage to finally persevere and get a corrected birth certificate, which made getting a passport super easy (I got to see how it works for most US-born white men - totally different experience). Perhaps I will write up the specifics at some point, but really, I just wanted to celebrate with you all that I finally got that done.

I started a new job today after being off work for more than 2 years. Which meant I got to use my passport for the first time, to prove citizenship for my I-9, so that was exciting. My new company does background checks on new employees, & in CA we can get a copy of what they found, so I learned that I will never escape my birth name as the SSA helpfully gives out when I first got my Social Security card & the name on it then. So that sucked but HR is supposed to keep it confidential & has made no comments (and most importantly. it did not prevent my hiring). I'll probably consult the Transgender Law Center at some point to see if they have any suggestions, but also I hope to live in a world where I don't have a lot of background checks done.

But really, I want to say I'm excited to be back at work, I like all the coworkers I've met (even the guy with whom I had a pretty uncomfortable phone interview has turned out to be much better in person), my job is interesting, challenging, and something I feel I can be successful at (after the end of my last job, the latter was one of my top criteria). I'll be doing project management at a software company, and given that I'm a total Process Queen as long as process serves the work, this is a good fit for me I think. I've never been just a project manager - it's always been one of my many hats, so in some ways this feels extremely relaxing, like I'll have time to do a really good job rather than just getting by. We'll see how that plays out. It's not relaxing yet, as I'm in the new job I can't even follow this conversation because you are speaking the secret internal language that I don't yet know phase, but it's also not overwhelming, which is nice. I've definitely paid more sustained attention today than I have in ages & my brain feels a bit like it's leaking out my ears, but not so much that I don't want to go back tomorrow.

Fannishly, I accidentally got into The Bridge remake on FX. [personal profile] jae posted about it, and how the original was much better, so I put it from my mind, but then she posted a review from someone who liked it, and that review hooked me, and then the show hooked me. Much of the season is online at FX or on Hulu if you want to check it out. Yes, it's about a serial killer, but it's not nearly so serial killers/killings are sexy and much more thinky and nuanced. Anyway, I'd be up for conversations about the show if you're watching it.

I also accidentally got into Longmire. I'm not sure I can put into words why I find it so compelling. Certainly there are many very attractive people in it (Katee Sackoff (Starbuck from BSG) and Bailey Chase (from a lot of things) make the deputy sheriff uniform ridiculously sexy, and Lou Diamond Phillips only looks better with age), but that's not the only thing.

Neither of these shows has led me to seek out fanfiction, though if any of you have recs I would certainly not turn them down. I'm still reading a lot of Avengers, Vorkosigan Saga when I can find it, and after re-reading the first 2 books in The Curse of Chalion series I've been making my way through the fanfic. It's funny how I want different kinds of stories from different fandoms. All I really want from The Curse of Chalion fic is explorations of the religion & the experiences of being a Saint, but usually I'm all about light & fluffy, happy endings, relationship exploration, and of course hot porn. Vorkosigan Saga I end up interested in world-building, character exploration - maybe it's that with book fandoms I want more like the books (but queerer & sexier :).

To close, I'll mention the fic that's really grabbed me lately (not meant to be an all-inclusive list!). I re-read Ellen Fremedon's Twenty-Year Man & Miss Lanyon's A Charity Case, both Vorkosigan Saga, very plotty, lots of fun. Ivan's not the big draw for me in the books but somehow gets the best fic; Byerly is more of a draw to me & I like him even better in fic. & Avengers-wise, I was so completely absorbed by SallyExactly's Chance I first dove into it & couldn't stop for wanting to see what happened & then tried desperately to slow down so it wouldn't end. She says there will be more coming, and I am crossing my fingers that this will come to pass. It's all about Natasha, and her & Clint's backstory, and action-packed, and now I'm just flailing my hands about to demonstrate how awesome it is, which doesn't easily translate to text. I have to be careful or I'll start re-reading now & I'm already up past my bedtime.

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The short version: still don't have a passport, but I'm in the process of getting my birth certificate fixed up. Also, many thanks for all the support from my last post! Y'all totally helped.

The long version: Parts II, III, and IVCollapse )

The upside of all this is that the more times I wrestle with this process, the less my PTSD goes crazy. It makes me think of Getting blown up, again and again, where vets with PTSD reduce their PTSD by repeated exposure thru virtual reality. Of course, my trauma was not originally about bureaucracy, but there's reasons why bureaucracy has ended up glommed into what my PTSD identifies as danger, and while it has sucked to repeatedly reengage like this, nothing terrible has happened, and my brain seems to be recognizing this. Which, yay, cuz it's not like bureaucracy is going away.

In other news, we now have 4 chickens living in the back yard, which is way more fun than I expected (chickens it turns out are hilarious), tho I've now ordered an automatic door for them after being awakened (along with the whole neighborhood) at 6AM multiple days because the sun was up and the ladies had important chicken business to attend to in their section of the yard, outside the very secure coop that keeps them from getting eaten by raccoons, possums, etc at night, and could I get my ass out there and let them out please. No rooster, and yet they can still make quite a ruckus.

Aside from that, I'm looking for work and trying to get thru projects that I won't have much time for when I'm working. & watching some TV (I blame [personal profile] copracat for getting me sucked into Lost Girl; and folks on twitter for The Killing and folks on tumblr for The Vikings), reading a bit of fanfic (I am having a renaissance of Smallville, which is apparently my comfort fandom - if you have old favorites, please recommend as that was before Pinboard/delicious so all my links are in an archived bookmarks file... somewhere).

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Adventures in Getting a Passport, Part I

So, I don't have a passport - never had one. I've been meaning to get one since they started being required to go to Canada & Mexico, even got as far as filling out the paperwork nearly 2 years ago, but never quite got it together. So, when I say Part I, really, it's Part 300000000, but we'll start counting again for the sake of simplicity.

Today, I looked in the mirror, thought, hey, my hair looks ok, my skin is good, I should go get my picture taken for my passport. I called the nearby Walgreens, found they did indeed do passport photos & the photo dept was still open (no matter what my day looks like, errands always happen between 6 and 9PM - it's a thing, and while it would be better if I could shift this, the list of more important things for me to focus on is large so I mostly accept this & move on), so I threw on a nice shirt in a good color & zipped out the door.

I got to the store with no trouble, found good parking, all was good so far. There's some random person paying at the photo counter, paying for many many items and unloading them very slowly, so I loitered, doing my best imitation of a patient person. Eventually, it's my turn, the clerk grabbed a tiny digital camera, pulled down a white shade, and took my picture. I learned that if I were getting a European passport, I would need to not smile, but for US it's fine. He showed me the picture, and since my eyes were open, I agreed it was fine. He looked surprised, which made me paranoid. I asked him if he asked because he thought it was a bad picture, and he looked uncomfortable and told me no, most people just want to try multiple pictures. He transferred the picture to a computer, adjusted the image, took some information from me, and said my photos would be ready in 5 minutes.

Five minutes is five minutes more than I want to spend in Walgreens, but not long enough to be worth going elsewhere, so I browsed. I discovered a number of interesting things: their price for hydrogen peroxide is not very good, they have a large assortment of walking canes but only one was made of wood (metal was the most common), and they don't seem to carry rulers of any type. They did have some nice windchimes (CVS does too actually; not sure what it is about drug stores & windchimes).

My five minutes were up so I wandered back up front and found two clerks, the one I started with, and a new one. The new one asked me if she could take a new picture - the color was apparently off in the first one. What could I do but agree? She took not one but three pictures, the third with the camera practically up my nose. That was the one she liked, and again, she transferred the photos to the computer, took more information from me, and off I went to explore the store further. This time I found a variety of things to purchase, including a new pair of sunglasses, ones actually made to fit over my regular glasses. This is an enormous step up from my previous pair which had only one arm left and balanced precariously and uncomfortably on the tip of my nose, so I guess they did me a favor.

These photos she deemed acceptable, so I am now closer to getting a passport than I ever have been before. Today's adventures did nothing to alleviate my anxiety about getting a passport - this was supposed to be the easy part! For some trans folks, even this part could be fraught with judgement, commentary, or worse, but I present normatively gendered, and had no issues on that front. & yet, what I thought would be a five minute process was twenty - what will happen when I get to the really hard part?

Because of course, the reason I haven't gotten a passport before, and the reason I have anxiety about all parts of the process, even those which I rationally know are no big deal, is because I'm trans, and I know that the at some point, I am going to have to stand before some random stranger and explain that while my birth certificate says F and one name, all my other documentation says M and another name, and that's how my passport should be. For all my issues with and complex feelings about Obama, his administration has done good things on this front - I don't have to do a name/gender change with the court, so long as I can show I've been using this name for a certain number of years (less than the 13 nearly 14 years that I have); I can just bring a generic note from my doctor, no longer one with invasive medical details. Truly, my main worry at this point (aside from fear of general transphobia, which I've certainly experienced in trying to sort other documentation: I'm looking at you SSA) is about proving that I'm also the person on my birth certificate. After all these years, the only thing I have in my old name other than it is my original social security card. Presumably that will be enough - my SSN didn't change - but if it's deemed to not be, I'm not sure what I could do. Which yes, anxiety talking, and I'll cross that bridge if & when I come to it.

Anyway, my plan is to get together my paperwork tomorrow (apparently this will involve a visit to Kinkos as I need to copy all my ID docs), and head over to the Santa Clara County Office of the Clerk Recorder on Friday. My thought is that the folks there might be a bit more professional with transfolk as they're more likely to have encountered us for a variety of reasons, but that's pure speculation. Anyway, wish me luck!

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Cavalia = awesome!

I can now safely reveal that my surprise for [personal profile] bearfairie was to see Cavalia tonight. It was indeed a spectacle worthy of my 40th birthday, and all the more fun to share with her. It reminded me how much I've enjoyed working in theater before (on a MUCH smaller scale). & the horses were gorgeous, the tumbling & wirework amazing, I loved the music (which is live & apparently adjusts to the actions of the horses in realtime). I am still amazed by the sheer creativity of all the different ways for humans & horses to interact - horses danced, groups of horses did elaborate maneuvers together, there was jumping, there was tumbling on horseback & over horses & around horses, there was wirework interacting with horse & rider, there was one scene which I swear was about herding cats but with 5 horses, and so on.

If it's in your area, I highly recommend going. & for those of you local, it's in San Jose til Aug 26, and they're running a buy 5 get 5 free special. If we could scrounge up a big enough group, I'd go again. :)

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The big 4-0

It's my 40th birthday! I've had the full range of emotions about the fact that this was coming, which happily means that I've gotten any freaking out done in advance and now can just enjoy it. It feels like an achievement to have lived this long (which sure, lots of people do & much longer, but now I'm one of them), and overall I'm quite happy with my life & looking forward to what comes next.

I have surprise plans for [personal profile] bearfairie and me tonight which I'm excited about (and of course can't talk about so as to not ruin the surprise). In previous years, I'd thought perhaps I'd have an enormous party to celebrate the occasion, but now that it's here, I find that no longer feels like the thing. Nothing against enormous parties - I'm sure I'll have them again, just not this time.

Every decade so far has been an unimaginable improvement over the previous decade, so here's hoping that trend continues and my 40s are awesome. I look forward to sharing them with you all.

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XMen AU rec; actor AUs

Today, I read winterhill's A Very Special Episode, which is an XMen AU where Erik & Charles are actors & they and other XMen are working on a My Little Pony spinoff with gay ponies. Plus its companion piece, The Secret of Dragon Ranch, which is the My Little Pony story in question. Both are fantastic - I can't believe I've not only read something related to My Little Pony but am recommending it (and kudos to whoever rec'd them to me - I can't remember who it was alas).

A Very Special Episode reminds me a lot of the Sherlock actor AU Performance in a Leading Role by Mad Lori, which is also ridiculously long and ridiculously awesome. I didn't know I had a thing for actor AUs before, but apparently I do. Should you know of any others you'd rec, I'd love to hear about them.

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weirdness meme

OK yes, it is spot on to call me a total whore when it comes to friends. 1% unique is probably the lowest anyone has ever scored me on that front - makes me curious what their heuristics are...


So, jcalanthe, your LiveJournal reveals…

You are… 1% unique, 19% peculiar, 43% interesting, 29% normal and 9% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are a total whore. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are keen to please. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is intellectual.

Your overall weirdness is: 28


(The average level of weirdness is: 28.
You are weirder than 63% of other LJers.)


Find out what your weirdness level is!



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tumblr, gender and spirituality

I am experimenting with tumblr: http://jcalanthe.tumblr.com/. Largely to try & figure out where everyone went - it's pretty quiet in lj/dw-land of late. I find it a little baffling (I think their UI could be more opaque but it would take effort), but the pictures are pretty. I've not been tracking who's on tumblr for the most part, so if you are, point me in your direction.

Unrelatedly, I feel the need to share that I really dislike the phrase "genetic women" - for many reasons, most personally because that phrase includes me, which, f* you buddy. Seriously, I think the people using this phrase would be even more uncomfortable/upset if I showed up to a "genetic women only" event than I am by their use of it - not only offensive but also not accurate to what they think they're saying.

I was glad to read today that PCon has declared that attendance at gender-limited events will be based on self-identified gender next year. Better late than never. I'm not on the no-gender-limited-events boat, so I'm totally happy with this policy - my only complaint is how long it took to get here.

I've been sitting with the announcement that a local cis-gendered-women-only coven has shifted to start to offer public events inclusive of transwomen, and public events open to all. I get that leaving their lineage is a really big deal, and go them for continuing to engage with this issue. I keep coming back to the fact that the core group is still cis-gendered-women-only (as far as I understand) - it's like, well, transwomen are now good enough to attend public rituals but only cis-gendered women are worthy of putting them on. I'm totally with them on helping normalize public events as inclusive, and I see this is a positive step, I just can't seem to get past this.

I dunno, lately I haven't wanted to put on my spokestranny britches and educate, educate, educate. But that doesn't mean that when people I know say hurtful things I don't get hurt - it's more personal, more hurtful when it's someone I have a relationship with (and here I'm talking a bit about the aforementioned coven but mostly other things). I guess it's better to know these things about people? Yay for practice in not taking things personally?

How did my cheery yet puzzled post about tumblr get here? Must be past my bedtime. Hope all is well out there in lj/dw-land.

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progress is slow but happening

I've been working again on organizing the room we've called my "office" since we moved in (in 2003). Really, it was my storage unit for almost that whole time, and we kept the door closed and pretended it wasn't there except when we needed to reset the internet connection. Now it's a hybrid storage unit, transitional space (like transitional agriculture, in the space between organic & conventional, parts of the room are now sorted & ready to be filed/given away/etc), and office/spiritual working area. Well, ok, the office part really is just the filing cabinets in the corner thusfar, and they've been there all along, but they're starting to have files! Of things I might actually want to look at again, as opposed to 20 years of phone bills and the like. Slowly, the transitional part grows and even transforms into some *gasp* open floorspace. I am not sure I'm ready to say I have hopes that I'll be "done" but I'm starting to believe it's possible that might happen. Which is huge because for most of the time we've lived here, I've been afraid to even go in the room & try to make sense of it (and I know, "they" say that if you haven't looked at it in x time, throw it out, but I just can't do that). So you know, go me, making progress.

I've found some amazing things. I found a check from my grandfather (now deceased) from an account that is certainly no longer in existence (and made out to my first & middle names post-transition, so I'm not sure I could have cashed it anyway). I found little paper bags of stuff from Pantheacon 2008-2010, and going thru those was pretty interesting. In 2008, I took notes on a pad of paper & stuck them usefully in a bag with the program book and a pile of ads & business cards. This included my notes from my first workshop with Orion Foxwood. Which were fascinating to re-read - I'm amazed how much of what I've learned from him since then was already present then, and fun to see where he's expanded and fine-tuned some concepts. And to think back to who I was just shy of 4 years ago, which wow, lots has changed.

Bedtime for me (being on a regular schedule which includes enough sleep and getting up early, also a thing which feels Sisyphean but I'm making some progress).

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Jan. 20th, 2012

I've been working again on organizing the room we've called my "office" since we moved in (in 2003). Really, it was my storage unit for almost that whole time, and we kept the door closed and pretended it wasn't there except when we needed to reset the internet connection. Now it's a hybrid storage unit, transitional space (like transitional agriculture, in the space between organic & conventional, parts of the room are now sorted & ready to be filed/given away/etc), and office/spiritual working area. Well, ok, the office part really is just the filing cabinets in the corner thusfar, and they've been there all along, but they're starting to have files! Of things I might actually want to look at again, as opposed to 20 years of phone bills and the like. Slowly, the transitional part grows and even transforms into some open floorspace. I am not sure I'm ready to say I have hopes that I'll be "done" but I'm starting to believe it's possible that might happen. Which is definite progress because for most of the time we've lived here, I've been afraid to even go in the room & try to make sense of it. So you know, go me, making progress.

I've found some amazing things. I found a check from my grandfather (now deceased) from an account that is certainly no longer in existence (and made out to my first & middle names post-transition, so I'm not sure I could have cashed it anyway). I found little paper bags of stuff from Pantheacon 2008-2010, and going thru those was pretty interesting. In 2008, I took notes on a pad of paper & stuck them usefully in a bag with the program book and a pile of ads & business cards. This included my notes from my first workshop with
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I've been working again on organizing the room we've called my "office" since we moved in (in 2003). Really, it was my storage unit for almost that whole time, and we kept the door closed and pretended it wasn't there except when we needed to reset the internet connection. Now it's a hybrid storage unit, transitional space (like transitional agriculture, in the space between organic & conventional, parts of the room are now sorted & ready to be filed/given away/etc), and office/spiritual working area. Well, ok, the office part really is just the filing cabinets in the corner thusfar, and they've been there all along, but they're starting to have files! Of things I might actually want to look at again, as opposed to 20 years of phone bills and the like. Slowly, the transitional part grows and even transforms into some open floorspace. I am not sure I'm ready to say I have hopes that I'll be "done" but I'm starting to believe it's possible that might happen. Which is definite progress because for most of the time we've lived here, I've been afraid to even go in the room & try to make sense of it. So you know, go me, making progress.

I've found some amazing things. I found a check from my grandfather (now deceased) from an account that is certainly no longer in existence (and made out to my first & middle names post-transition, so I'm not sure I could have cashed it anyway). I found little paper bags of stuff from <a href="http://www.pantheacon.com">Pantheacon</a> 2008-2010, and going thru those was pretty interesting. In 2008, I took notes on a pad of paper & stuck them usefully in a bag with the program book and a pile of ads & business cards. This included my notes from my first workshop with <a href="http://www.orionfoxwood.com/"Orion Foxwood</a>. Which were fascinating to re-read -

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Happy New Year!

Last post of 2011/first of 2012. We're at home tonight - I too have laundry going (alfrect notes that this is a common activity), and need to get up & do some last-minute stuff and go to bed as I need to be in SF at 8AM, so of course it's time to make a post. [personal profile] isilya recommended doing this meme, so we'll see how far I get with it.

2011 in reviewCollapse )

So yea, some clear themes. I think I probably could have written 2 sentences & covered all of the above, but I didn't know that before I did the meme.

Here's hoping 2012 brings health, joy, stability, and all the good things to all of us!

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dual-posting now

So I'm trying out dual-posting on lj & dw, since it seems the crossposting setup is also a casualty of lj's recent changes. Hopefully that will get cleared up, cuz of course now that I can't, I'd like to import my lj over here. I've got filters set up so I can read in both places without too much overlap, and I'll keep cleaning that up over time. I see why I've been avoiding this - it's time-consuming.

Productive day today - farmers market, a zillion errands, dishes, cooked, answered lj comments (it turns out if I actually post, people comment back! Which, yay!), played with lj/dw filters. I changed the filter in our heater (tho I'm not satisfied and will need to futz more later) to one which is far less gross than the fiber-y one we've been using (which can be cleaned but leaves fibers all over and so the messy factor makes me not want to deal). Did a bit of laundry (bearfairie is set on uniforms for work yay). Still going thru piles of paper and sorting into recycle, shred, file, and happily, recycle is winning by a lot (our big roll-y bin can't keep up with it right now). The dining room is not yet reclaimed from all the crap that got dumped there after the bedroom flood, but it's getting there.

We re-did our Ancestors' altar, which we'd meant to do for the Day of the Dead, but you know, we got there eventually. It's not like our Ancestors don't know us. They have a pretty new fall altar cloth (it's fall here in the Bay Area) - brown brocade with gold bamboo leaves - and they got attention from us together, so they're happy. And I'm changing my bovida, which I'm working on being a consistent Sunday thing. Consistency is a struggle for me, but I'm working on it.

Anyway, bedtime approaches. Hope all is well with y'all.

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dreamwidth, fannish update

FYI, I have changed this journal's settings to minimize inclusion in search engines. In case that's kept any of you from commenting. I do not know how long that takes to propagate.

I'm slowly beginning the move to Dreamwidth as it seems critical mass of my flist is over there. I realize I'm behind the curve and many folks are on the tumblr and such but this is the pace I'm at. Any of you still reading, can you point me to your acct at DW if you have one? I'm jcalanthe there too. I may keep reading some here too, for those of you not moving, but I need to sort things so I'm not seeing the same posts in both places. So if you're not moving, let me know that too.

I'm reading a lot of Avengers/Iron Man/Captain America/Thor/etc these days, for which I largely blame/credit celli and her regular recs (thank you!!). Tho many of the rest of you are helping too. And somehow I've ended up reading Generation Kill even tho I don't really know who anyone is. Seriously, I've looked up pictures in IMDB and they just don't stick with me. Except for the one guy played by the guy from Castle who doesn't show up in fic much. Somehow this doesn't detract from my enjoyment. My Vorkosiganverse obsession seems to be waning, since I ran out of books and less recs fall into my lap, but still reading some of that. And I'm still on a bit of a Dresden Files kick - I lost like 2 days of my life reading other things the road to hell is paved with , an AU where Harry works for Marcone.

I've abandoned delicious and moved to pinboard. I'm glad to have a working place to obssessively tag fic again, and have been super impressed by the guy who creates/runs pinboard.

I'm watching little TV these days. My favorite this past summer was Necessary Roughness, which I haven't really seen people talk about. Sure, TV therapy is its own animal and I needed to la la la thru some details, but TK is smokin' (and a fun character with an actual arc), and who knew Riley would grow up to be so hot? & Dani is a pretty cool character - yay for a female lead. mild spoilersCollapse )

As to this fall's season, I watched a couple of eps of Revenge, and keep meaning to get back to it since I keep seeing it favorably discussed on my flist. & I mean to check out Once Upon a Time, again based on the flist. Mainly I was excited about The Playboy Club - I started watching to see pretty people, stuck around because it turns out I'm powerless before Eddie Cibrian and because Bunny Maureen reminded me of a young Ally Walker (who on Profiler was a formative girlcrush for me), and was completely hooked because of the subplot about the Mattachine Society. So, bummed that was canceled.

That's what I got. What are you all up to these days?

New look for my lj

Dr Bunsen Honeydew in my icon pretty much sums up where I'm at these days - good, bad, it's all ZOMG!!! (and honestly, mostly good, just overwhelming). Definitely interesting times, and I still don't know how to talk about most of it. I know I rarely post, but I've been reading y'all fairly consistently and I thank you all for the distraction/entertainment.

Obviously what I needed was to upgrade to S2 and customize the look of my lj. I don't think this is final but it's long past my bedtime. I like the penguins, and for the Aurora Borealis, I blamecredit yahtzee63's The Winter of Banked Fires and Jae who shared a link about glass igloos.

New journal title is from a Dear Sugar column. Letting go of ideas about myself which are no longer true or no longer serve is a big part what's going on these days, so it really spoke to me. I'm a Dear Sugar fan - if you haven't read her, I recommend checking her out (and I recommend not doing what I did, which was start at letter 0. There was an original Sugar who I didn't like nearly so well; the current takes over at letter #27).

Hat tip to afterthefair, Justin Timberlake Does Things made me laugh so hard, I made a feed for lj so I can keep up without having to use this newfangled tumblr thing (please, I just upgraded to S2). This is one of my favorites.

Whee! I'm on my new phone!

I feel like I'm in the future, typing on my new smartphone.  How does anyone get anything done with all this stuff to do?  I suppose I'll get used to it.

bearfairie and I both got Samsung Galaxy S 4Gs (refurbished cuz I'm cheap).  We have to do something so they'll look different...

OK, I should actually do some work.  Hi to all y'all - hope all is well.

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Pantheacon!

Pantheacon is very soon! I'm excited, and now that I'm finally healthy, I'm hopeful that this year I won't be horribly ill for the whole conference. Schedules are out, both the short list and the version with descriptions, which is great - perhaps this year I won't get excited about something that turns out to be women-only.

I'm still digesting the schedule, but here's what I thinking about so far: cut for lengthCollapse )

I have a lot more unstructured time than I remember having in years past. Which I think is ok - previous years, I was still casting a wide net, looking for spiritual home. Now, I have more than enough spiritual home, so there's a lot less urgency, and a lot more space for just hanging out with the bunches of people I like & don't get to see enough of.
Several folks are doing free divinations (with option of tipping :) now/this week:
Various folks on my flist have been talking about Fairly Legal, and it's Sarah Shahi so I checked it out on Hulu. my brief spoilery thoughts after seeing the first 2 episodesCollapse )

I am finally almost healthy again after 3 weeks of yuck. Which means I should get my ass to sleep so I don't relapse. Hope you're all well.

Miscellanea

I'm sick and back to being pouty about it. Coughing fit woke me, so I'm making my way thru ginger-slippery elm tea in the hopes I'll be able to get a bunch more sleep soon. I'm not utterly miserable, but the cold has taken away my ability to think and my ability to hear the spirit realm, and the quiet is a bit deafening.

I've just pre-ordered my very own copy of Steam Powered: Lesbian Steampunk Stories, which I'm super-excited about. You can pre-order too should this sound like your sort of thing. bookelfe has written an extensive review, should you want more info.

I'm watching the webinar at herbalninja.com in another window. A bit of fuss & bother to get to the webinar, and Jim's pretty goofy, but I do love their commitment to the idea that anyone can do basic herbalism without needing to go wildcraft or read a bunch of books, or more importantly, buy expensive products in many cases. I have not yet made garlic oil to rub on my feet, but if I'm still coughing by tomorrow night, I may try it out. Not so sure about the onion cough syrup...

I've been plotting in my head a post about how, from a place of really enjoying the game Fallen London/Echo Bazaar, I'm pretty disappointed in the racism in parts of it. I wanted to at least say something here since I'd highly recommended the game. I'm still playing, but there's definitely parts which make me grit my teeth. If they can re-imagine a world where London is now underground, death is not permanent, and so on, there's just no excuse for not also re-imagining a world where we don't use racist language like Oriental, where we don't venerate The Great Game (which yes, I did not know the origins of that term either, but they were pretty easy to find out, and while it's a very cool-sounding phrase (when one does not think about the origins), it's certainly not the only cool-sounding phrase available and we as creative people can do better), etc (I think there was more here but my brain is not working so well). & to go beyond avoidance, why not re-imagine the world with people of color integrated into everywhere? Nisi Shawl talks about a variety of ways folks are bringing diversity into steampunk (and happens to mention N.K. Jemisin's awesome story in the aforementioned anthology); Ay-leen the Peacemaker writes about multiculturalism in steampunk - folks are talking about this in interesting ways, and there's no reason this can't filter into the game (while keeping in mind Holzman's advice). I know the creators can do better, because they've already impressed me with how they support gender diversity (I play a third-gendered character!) & sexual diversity (there seems to be no penalty for or assumptions about which gender(s) one's character might have sex with, and there's even a threesome possible in one storyline); I haven't yet encountered something men can do that women can't also.

I've run out of coherency so I'll stop here.

Happy Gregorian New Year

bearfairie and I were looking something up in Wikipedia and came across the fun fact that 1 Jan is Jesus's brit milah, which of course, 8 days after 25 Dec, so tomorrow, we celebrate worldwide his being given a name and ritually circumcised. bearfairie thinks this is hilarious. I'm trying to have some deep thought about how an ancient Jewish ritual shapes the way we measure the passage of time today, but I'm too tired for it to coalesce so that is left as an exercise for the reader.

This year we have an overabundance of NYE plans, so we will be meandering about the Bay Area visiting with folks, hopefully starting in the afternoon so we won't be out too late, but still being up after 2AM is not an auspicious beginning. I hope all y'all have a wonderful and safe time celebrating the end of 2010/beginning of 2011, and that 2011 brings good things for all of us.

Drive-by recs

Quick post to say that I adored basingstoke's latest: Intemperance. It's Sherlock Holmes (the original/more recent movie, not the latest modern retelling on the BBC), and I feel like it was written for me personally. To talk about it at all is to spoil it, so I'll just say it's well-written, depicts something not often seen in fanfic & does it quite well, and made me laugh aloud so many times, bearfairie kept wanting to know what was so funny. Highly recommended.

Also, have become completely obsessed with Fallen London, which you should all come play with me (follow me on Twitter under the same name & we can play a little together). If I lived anywhere near London, I'd be making my best efforts to get a job there - they describe themselves as narrative engineers and have very interesting things in their blog about the mechanics of storytelling.
bearfairie and I are off on an adventure this weekend, heading to the North Bay for time away from all the work to be done at home, time at the beach and with friends, and to visit the fabulous Lucky Mojo Curio Co (the online store is amazing, and in person it's a million times better). I'm excited, though being pokey as usual about packing and such. Obviously, since I'm here posting

Last weekend with Orion Foxwood was fantastic, and I'll be integrating the work from that for some time yet. I feel like I'm a different person, but I don't yet know how. And time with him stretched into Monday, and then Thursday his business partner Sophia did a workshop on being a spiritual leader (she described it in different words, but that's what it boiled down to), which was amazing too, and I'll be internalizing that work over a bunch of time as well. Do you ever have moments, where when you've been doing something for a long time & are pretty competent at it, and suddenly realize, there's all these depths you didn't know existed before, and actually, you know almost nothing? That's what her class was like for me (in a good way). I love that there's so much more to learn.

If you're looking for divinations, thejeweledhorn is doing animal tarot readings over the US holiday weekend. She's recently started doing tarot, and my experience is that she's really talented - definitely recommended. I'm psyched to see how she will grow over time.

quick post before bed

It was a beautiful day today - blue sky, nice breeze, warm but not too hot, a few wisps of clouds. It made my commute very cheerful, though I'd much rather have gone to the beach. & dammit, I was going to visit the beach on the way to other stuff this evening and work exploded and made me run too late to do so. I've been going to the ocean weekly, and it's just not enough right now. Hopefully this won't last too much longer, cuz it's 45+ min each way to the ocean (being in Silicon Valley, there are mountains between me and the ocean no matter which way I go), and that's hard to fit into my life multiple times a week. This weekend is another one with Orion Foxwood, so I'll be in Santa Cruz Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, so I'll be able to get my ocean fix then at least. Plus, weekend with him, always good.

I went to a yoga class on Sunday, at the recommendation of my massage therapist. It's called Yoga for Stiff Guys (start where you're at he says). Wow, that was hard!! I can hike for miles, but an hour of that was pure torture. Easily one of the hardest physical things I've ever done. Next time I can go is in three weeks, and I hope that by then I've forgotten how bad it was, so I'll go back.

I haven't read all of it yet, but amazonziti has smart things to say about unsafe vs uncomfortable/unprivileged in the context of safe space (this part is below all the addenda at the beginning) - thanks to coffeeandink for the link.
I'm taking a break while my whites are washing, before I get into cooking and packing for ceremony tomorrow. I'm making a pate-like substance (with tofu, sage, walnuts, and onion) to go on top of slices of the yellow spaceship squash, plus prepping for some sort of slow-cooked beef dish with onions, marjoram, carrots, kale, and a bit of spicy pepper, to cook during the day so we'll have hot food after.

I spent a ridiculous amount of time the past couple of days reading Phoenix Burning, recommended by thefourthvine. Buffyverse, where Buffy is resurrected 350 years in the future. yahtzee63 does an excellent job of exploring what that would be like as well as bringing in cool OCs (Dear Joss, see, it is possible to have POC in the Buffyverse in major roles...). I join TFV in recommending it. Also, penknife has had a recent run of ridiculously hot SGA stories plus Stand in the Place Where You Live where Daniel Jackson takes Vala to Denver Pride, which is much more thoughtful and less outrageous than I'd expected (in a good way). & I haven't even seen Iron Man but both Nerds of the Earth, Take Note! (crossover with Leverage, hilarious and awesome beyond words, by brown_betty and emeraldwoman) and Almost No One Makes It Out (AU where Tony Stark isn't rich - I could not stop reading it, by atrata) have made me think I probably should. Or at least just read more fic.

I'm 2 eps behind and missed the pilot, but I too am watching Justified. I keep trying to have thinky thoughts about the show - it's about Kentucky, where both my parents are from, and there's so much to chew on about race and class, but thusfar, all I've got is that Timothy Olyphant is still hot and they super-underuse Erica Tazel (unsurprisingly). That and it makes me really uncomfortable to find Boyd Crowder hot given that he is (or at least purported to be at the start of the show) a white supremacist (but wow, he and Raylan are so doing it, or at least used to). I love having drawls on my TV (I've been in CA for 20 years, my ability to tell good vs bad US Southern accent isn't that refined), but really, if it became a show centering on Rachel Brooks, I'd probably like it better. I suppose that's what fandom is for.

kdorian pointed me to a free video game which is fairly addictive. It's kinda like Where's Waldo? plus puzzles, and is a video game I can play without flaring up my RSI.

stonetalker is doing free divinations all weekend, in case anyone is looking for divinations.

And now, off to cooking and hanging out with bearfairie and fenrisskoll who just showed up.

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